I push myself

I push my self,
To recover,
To go back to my old self,
To be a strait A student,
To be the schools good girl again,
I push my self,
To look at you in a different way,
Your like a mosaic,
A collage of different colors and emotions,
An art of the devils itself,
You make me wanna fall away,
I push myself,
To quit my griping,
To stop my trying,
But it only brings nightly tears,
Many fears,
Through all those years,
That I pushed myself to be something more than what I was,
To be that perfection you expected,
But now,
I push myself,
To be my own character,
In my own useless existent,
Not a worthless pawn in yours.

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